Nowplaying: Mess Is Mine - Vance Joy


After watching Hunger Games: MockingJay Part 1 the other day, I realized how our friendship somewhat resembles Peeta's and Katniss friendship; where we somehow helped each other going through hard times. It's such a blessing to have you as my bestfriend; I wouldn't have it another way.


And I can't believe it has been almost one year of friendship; or was it two? Haha. But yes, I am blessed.

Ever since the existence of hashtag (it starts from Twitter and Instagram, and of course, Facebook being FOMO had to include hashtags on their website as well), people had been using it extensively. Some uses it the right way, but others, wellll.... can I just say that they need to go to social media school before using hashtag? Hahahaha. Nevertheless, I enjoy reading hashtags because you'll never know what you will find. Among all the hashtag that people uses, I love how Vivy Yusof (check out her Instagram, @vivyyusof for those funny hashtags) uses her hashtags. This is her recent posting and I've gotta say, she's really creative and witty with her hashtags.




I mean, Vivy, can you not be funny for once? Hahahaha


Until yesterday.


So my bestfriend, Moses, has this habit of posting funny pictures that he found on 9Gag or Facebook into our chatroom. Yesterday, he posted something about the longest hashtag and I'm like, ' meh. Another one of his jokes. Kelak lah check. ' as I was still busy doing some work. Then suddenly, I don't know why I suddenly feel like I want to open Facebook on browser. So I did. But before I feel like opening my Facebook, I saw notifications on my Facebook but I just like, 'meh. Maybe it's group notification. No need to check lah.'

You know that thing about instinct? Yeah. Mine kicked in last night although I can't make sense to why I need to check my Facebook (but on Moses' post in our chatroom I can't even sense wtf hahaha). So the moment I was on Facebook, I saw this:



Then I immediately check Moses post in our chatroom, and I saw THIS:



And I was like, hahahahahahahaha this dude ah, VERY FARNI! I read the comment one by one and laughed at every single one of it. So the moment he reached home, I immediately called him and asked, "sempat jugak kamu post ni. Dahlah hashtag panjang sangat. Mana dapat idea tu?" And he laughed at what I asked him. I also told him that, combined total of likes (as at when I called him last night) was almost 80++, AND COUNTING. He was shocked to hear it. And I'm like, "what do you expect? Your post is too sweet for everyone to handle," hahahahahahaha (and I still getting remarks about it today in the office).

I think I need to school him on proper lengths of hashtag hahaha. However, he's getting good at taking my pictures so we're good, guys. Hahaha.


Inspired by the #followme couple hahahaha

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Am I wrong for knowing what I want in life? And what I want in life is to explore the world, to go to my DREAM destinations.


Am I wrong for enjoying my life without being tied to anybody at the moment? I have never tasted these sweet freedom when I was younger because I thought that by being in a relationship makes me happy. I learnt that we can actually be happy be it whatever status we may be. I saw living proof of single people living their life to the fullest and married people who are actually miserable in their life.


Am I wrong for knowing what kind of guy I want in my life? My past experience taught me to be careful with my steps; I don't build those walls for no reason. But if you think you are brave enough to break my walls, go ahead and do it. Be creative while you're at it. Cz once I'm done giving chances, I will move on and not look back anymore.


To all the people that I posed these few questions today, I don't even know the reasoning behind me asking these questions. Perhaps I just want assurance in my decision making. Who says making decisions are easy?

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This morning, I was scrolling through Instagram search and I found @thoughtcatalog's Instagram. So I immediately scrolled down the page and read a few posts that I consider interesting. Then, I came across this particular posts which struck a chord in my heart; as I was told by my confidante many moons ago, that if I want to find a life partner, it is better that I find someone who is entirely my opposite. At the time, I don't understand what she meant. But after our conversations a few days ago, and me reflecting back on what had happened during the first half of 2016, eventually everything make sense. 

Now, I don't own this post. This post is entirely from Thought Catalog's Instagram. The reason why I am posting it here is so that it becomes a reminder to me whenever I feel that things are not going according to my way or how I envisioned it. 

The last paragraph is my favourite, among the whole. Cause I had always being a big believer that you have to accept a person for who they are; and their flaws can actually be your strength. You know how sometimes you search everywhere for the precious gem in your life but actually it has been in your life all along? Yeah, that's exactly how I am feeling right now. I don't feel stupid for letting this person go; somehow I am not worried. For some reason that I could not explain to other people (who are I believe, less intuitive than I am) that I know this person will come back to me somehow. I'm not sounding cocky, but to be honest, I was never the one looking for him. He came into my life without me knowing it, expecting it. But I believe, there must be a reason why I feel that way. It doesn't matter if other people don't believe it. What matters the most is that I BELIEVE. I believe God sent him into my life for a reason. And I definitely learnt a lot from him, despite of the short time that we spent time together. I am deeply grateful for that. 

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This song came at the right timing; or so it seems.


"Apa khabar teman?
Ku perlu bicara
Kerna aku hilang tanpa kamu
Apakah ertinya?
Ke semua ini
Ku merindukan kehadiranmu "

" Apa khabar teman?
Ku tunggu bicara
Harap engkau cari diri aku
Apakah ertinya?
Kesudahan ini
Sepatutnya kau rindu kehadiranku "

So now, if you ask me, should you go and watch Me Before You at the movies, my answer will be, 

if you enjoyed The Fault In Our Stars and also If I Stay, you should go and watch it. 

But if I must rank it according to how it emotionally (lol) affect me, I would rank Me Before You in #3, after If I Stay. 

To me, nothing beats The Fault In Our Stars as at to date (I'm talking about the movies that are produced after 2002 onwards. Nothing can beat The Notebook or A Walk To Remember. Those, are just epic. Today's teenagers or young adults would not know what I'm talking about lol). 

Anyway, before I got carried away talking about which romance movie is awesome as at to date, 

I better get going on to the REAL reason why I decided to blog today. 

Like a book, movies also has a way for us the audience to learn from it. 

And if you are like me, a person who can actually watch the same movie for 10 times and still didn't get bored of it, you will know that every time you watch the movie, you will learn new points that you might missed from the movie earlier. 

So for this particular movie, I can definitely relate to the points that the director, Thea Sharrock as well as the author of the book, Jojo Moyes are trying to deliver via this movie. 

And the choice of the main actors, Sam Claflin and Emilia Clarke is just, WONDERFUL. 

I cannot imagine any other actors or actresses who could portray this movie as good as them. 

As a person who is in my 20 something, who are at times, not even sure whether am I doing the right thing in life or not, this movie OPEN UP my eyes on how I should just live my life. 

Which brings me to point #1

*Note: if you have yet to watch this movie (but you are PLANNING to), please take note that somewhere along this post I might reveal some spoilers on what happened in this movie so please don't go curse at me for revealing some spoilers. But! I will try my best not to reveal the ending though. Haha

#1 BE AMBITIOUS

When Louisa was interviewed by Will Traynor's mum, Camilla on the position as a "caregiver", Camilla actually asked a question to Louisa which actually made Louisa appears to be struggling to answer the question. The question is actually a simple question; but yet it can make one to appear as "unambitious" or "doesn't take life seriously" if your answer is, "oh I don't know. Perhaps married with one kid," or a simple "I don't know. I can't even tell you what I'm going to eat for lunch/dinner later." I've come across people who just live day by day, without knowing what they plan to do when they retire one day, what kind of lifestyle do they want after their retirement; let alone 5 years down the road. These kind of people are actually the dangerous kind of people to be around with. All they know is to have fun, planning for their next vacation or getaway, just because they can't stand their mundane life. But yet, they did not do anything to improve their life towards the better. Life is all about choices. There are so many choices in this world. Like, for example, if you don't like to drink Starbucks coffee, you can always choose Coffee Bean for that matter. We are SPOILT with so many choices in the world, and yet we tend to go with the most comfortable thing that we know. Because to us, comfortable is easy. It is true, that comfortable is easy. But comfortable also doesn't make us any better, because we will keep be doing the same thing over and over again. And yet, one asked, "why is my life so boring? I am just practically afloat on this earth until I found something better to do." My question is, why are you just waiting for something to drop on your lap only then you make a move? Sure, doing something outside of your comfortable zone is not the easiest thing to do. Do you think it was easy for me when I first started jogging, or going for piloxing classes for that matter? There are days that I literally had to pep talked myself in order for me to actually drive myself to the nearest park to jog. But yet, as time passes by, it is as if I had done this all my life. As Will said to Louisa, 

#2 LIVE YOUR LIFE ACCORDING TO YOU, AND ONLY, YOU

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Image from: Maria Shriver: Power of Inspiration

nowplaying: Jealous - Labrinth


I have the tendency to hold on to some people longer than I should be; especially when they moved on earlier than I do. I finally grasps the idea of some people come into your life only for a season, and that when suddenly they disappeared from your life, it really means that they can't follow you to the next level where God wants to bring you.



So last night, that happened. And just earlier yesterday, I had a conversation with Sonia about this particular bracelet was given to me by one person who is no longer in my life as of now. I told her that this person no longer keeps the picture of him surprising me for my belated birthday earlier this year in his Instagram.


I somehow took it as a "sign" that he is trying to move on in his life. I am indeed sad, but because I am actually very happy lately for reasons I do not know of (perhaps I am just tired of being sad I guess), I just let it slide. Plus, the bracelet is his "gift" to me. Meaning to say, once it reaches my hand, I have the right to do whatever I want. Heck, I can choose not to wear it actually. But the bracelet is by far, the most beautiful and expensive (this is as testified by my room mate cause she knows where this person bought it) I had received, I actually cherish it a lot. I am sentimental that way. If I consider you to be very special in my heart, you could give me a rock and I can keep it for the rest of my life.

And when the incident above happens, I was taken aback. It's as if the Universe is telling me, "just let go already. You are indeed happier now without that person. You don't have to remember him anymore."

But the thing is, if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't have changed my lifestyle. Before this, I can consider myself a sloth. I don't exercise, I cringe upon hearing the word "jogging", let alone run or anything fitness. But because I was angry at him (yes, honestly, that was how I felt when he suddenly disappeared before, the first time, previously), I started to jog. I joined piloxing, an activity is very high intensity (for me, a sloth, okay?) where it consists of a combination of pilates, boxing and dancing. I started to eat healthly (ummmm... more or less. Still need to discipline myself on it though), wholemeal bread over white bread, sugarless drinks, less rice, more fruits. And I noticed, that I am indeed happier because I do all these. If I skipped my jogging session, I feel that my life is not complete. When he see my changes, he told me he did it on "purpose", because he knows it is the only way to make a person as stubborn as I am, to actually change. And I really thank him for that.


So, if you ask me, if I should just let the braclet in that condition, it is like I am denying a part of him where he did make a difference in my life. I am accepting that he might no longer have a place in my life (or vice versa), but I don't want to forget the changes that he influenced me to make me a better person. I am letting him go, but a part of him will stay in life. And for that, I am forever thankful.

Dear you, I hope you will achieve your goals and desires in life. Wherever you may be, I hope you will always be in good health, and I wish you success in life. Perhaps we will see each other again in the near future, perhaps we don't. But know that I will never forget you. Sincerly, B.

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I am at this age where I'm "supposedly" have a potential life partner in had,

and I am supposed to plan my wedding and prepare to get married.

Then after the wedding, I am supposed to bear children.

Then after that, take care of my kids.

Then, watch them grow.

However, I am nowhere near figuring that out.

Heck, I am still struggling with what to wear to office tomorrow (because preparing early avoids being late in the morning hahaha).

And I am supposed to figure out about my life partner? 

To have their presence in my life now?

I understand the fear that some parents (or grandparents, for that matter) that when their child (grandchildren) reaches a certain age and they have yet to have a potential partner in their life, 

But sometimes, I feel that some parents do not try to understand their children's position; especially in today's world where everything is overpriced and the value of our money is shrinking. 

How is one expected to build a new life with loans to begin with? 

Personal loan - for a lavish wedding to impress the many people that you don't even know 

(I'm using my culture as an example; not intended to hurt anybody out there); and most of the time they are the relatives that you don't even know. 

Credit cards - to buy the things that you might not need today 

Perhaps that's the reason why we heard of so many cases of divorces in this era.

Because they feel so pressured of their parents' nagging; their grand uncles/aunties *mind you, that you only met ONCE a year, during certain FESTIVE SEASON* question of "When is your turn?" etc.

I have this friend, who got married because she feels that she is getting "old". 

And when she got pregnant, her husband still continues to go clubbing until the wee hours of the morning, just like those days when they were still dating.

Except this time, he goes ALONE. 

He can't even take a day off just to accompany her for her routine check up.

Instead, he asked, "Is it necessary for you to go check up every few weeks? You're pregnant. So?"

The nerve of that guy. *rolls eyes*