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This sounds complicated, because we are surrounded by noises. Noises from our families, friends, acquaintance, bosses, that aunty or grand-aunty you only met once a year. Pressure to live a certain way that you should be, or so they say. But then again, I don't remember when we are being born to this world, God gave a guidebook to our parents with the title, "HOW TO HANDLE *insert your name here* " Heck, He doesn't even give us a guidebook on how to live our life (as in, the non sinful way, of course. Not the "let's sleep around" or "I'm gonna cheat people to get what I want" kind of thing). As long as what you do in your life makes you happy *no matter how stupid it might sound to someone else*, that's what matters the most. YOU. Your happiness. Sure, you need to make sure that your parents are pleased with your choice, or your choice pleases them *I am still figuring this out too*. And maybe some close friends too, but in the end of the day, if these people have little significance in your life, and you let THEM affect how you live your life, you are bound to make yourself depressed, or sad. Why do you need other people to define your life when you know what your capabilities are? Sure, you need some guidance here and there. That is why you should have a mentor in life; or at the very least, someone whom you can turn to and will give you the best advice, even if the advice makes you cringe or stings you to the core. But, in the end of the day, it is YOUR HAPPINESS that matters the most. If they really value you as they said they would, they will not say something like, "you know, you shouldn't do this *if they are trying to talk you out against something that can make you better, perhaps (?)*. What will this uncle/that aunty/this person/that person think if they know you are doing this? Ko gila kah?". Instead, they would say something like, "I've known you for so many years already. And I've seen your strength and weaknesses. And although I may not agree with the way you are doing it, but if it makes you happy, and you know you have the strength to do it, go for it." I am thankful, and grateful, every single day that I am surrounded by the people who value my happiness, as much as I value theirs. And so far, I am loving the life that I am living. It might not be as adventurous as the next person (YET); but I'm happy to know that my life is define by me, and only me. And not by some grand-aunty I met just once a year *pun DEFINITELY intended*.

The reason why this part hits me to the core is because, all my life, I've met people who constantly tries to change me to, I don't know, someone else. Someone who is definitely not me. Initially, I was naive to even realized that the particular person was trying to change me. I thought that, "if it makes him happy, why not? His happiness is also my happiness." How wrong I was. Because throughout all the time that I 'changed' to make this person happy, I was miserable. I thought that I deserved the miserable-ness; because he planted it in my mind that I deserve it (in some ways I can't explain here). However, the moment I was no longer with the person, and I discover who I actually was (more like discovering who I am as a person, without being defined by another person), I was actually happier. My pace might not be the same as the other person, but at least I know that those changes that I made, is because it was MY decision to make. And not because the next person said that I should do it. *now, see how this particular point and point #2 is related somehow?* Before this also, I always find it hard to accept people who doesn't have the same thinking as I am. Until I met Aunty Eileen, and she mentioned to me this, "Cel, you have to remember. Not everyone has the same level of awareness as yours. Or have the same kind of exposure like yours. So you cannot go and hate them for reacting the way they reacted to you." I can't remember why she said those things to me now; but I guess it has something to do with me being the person who insists that if everyone has the same kind of thinking, it will make the world a better place. However now when I come to think about it, if everyone thinks exactly how I do, it will be a boring, predictable world. So, I learn to accept that different people think differently because of their level of awareness; because of the exposure that they have; the people that they surround themselves with. And this year (actually it was since last year; and it is indeed ONE year since I met this particular person), I was tested again with the part where someone tries to change me to be who he thinks I should be. However, this time, I got smarter. I didn't really follow through with what this person's vision of how he wants me to be. Maybe because I already have a vision of who I see myself become in the next 5 years; or at least, I already know what exactly I want in my life. It's just that I have yet to get to where I want to be. So I detests the changes he tried to apply on me. There are times that I got frustrated of why he did what he did; but I forgive him anyway. And even though as hard as it is for me to let him go and accept that he no longer is in the chapters of my life, I still remember him for the good memories he gave to me. It might not be much, but I value it to my core because he made me feel special. I guess, despite of all the things that he made me feel, he did made me feel special. So far, not many people had made a mark in my life (where they made me happy, sad, angry, frustrated, ALL AT ONCE) and this guy, is the second person who leave a deep impact in my life. He was also the second person who created a turning point in my life; from just accepting that I'm gonna be fat and happy to I'm gonna be fit, healthy and happy. And I'm loving the person I become today, because of him. And I hope that some day, when the time is right for me to finally be with the person whom God destined me to be, I will be at my happiest and glad of all the curveball people that God had sent to me to experience, be it good or bad experience.

So I guess a #3.1 lesson that I can include in here is that, 

#3.1 ACCEPT THAT EVERYONE THAT YOU MET HAS A PURPOSE IN YOUR LIFE. IT'S EITHER THAT THEY ARE HERE TO STAY, OR THEY ARE HERE FOR YOU TO LEARN A THING OR TWO FROM THEM

Phew! There goes the life lessons that I learn from the movie Me Before You. I hope I didn't bore you with the ramblings and examples that I include in my posts; it's just how I write haha. Plus, it has been really A WHILE since I properly blog. Till the next post, when I get my inspiration. And with this post, I am going to end this post with a letter by Will to Louisa. Just because, and it is also for the person who came into my life and walked out but is never forgotten. This letter is also for the valuable people who are still in my life, and despite of us not talking properly due to the us being busy in life, know that you guys are REALLY, very important people in my life. *and because I am kinda like Louisa Clark. Those who knows me really well will know which part where they can relate me to Clark.*