A question asked to me by a friend of mine earlier last night: 

"Have you ever wonder, perhaps whatever that's happened is all because of 'timing'?

Like for example, a person who is really sick, determines to get Well in any ways possible.

Say, he chooses to go and see a dukun, 

And the dukun said to him to say a certain mantra. 

He did as what the dukun had said, and he gets well eventually. 

So this guy thought that the dukun is a real deal, and not just some fraud who wants his money. 

Plus, in order to see that dukun, he had to go through a lot of challenges (I.e drive miles and miles away, had to take a boat upstream, just to see this dukun.) 

But what he doesn't know is that, perhaps God has written in his life that he will get well at that exact moment, exact time, irregardless of what his method may be (even if it might be wrong).

And all those challenges that he had gone through ,are just obstacles to make him stronger. 

Have you ever think of life that way? "

My honest answer? 

NO, I never think of it that way.

But I believe, that everything that has happened is due to God's timing, whether we like it or not.

If we move ahead of God, we might be interrupting Him in whatever that he is giving to us. 

Be it a blessing or a lesson.

And if you are lucky, it can come in both ways. 

If that is the case, then I am lucky, because you are both a lesson and a blessing in my life. 

You may not be in my life anymore, or I am in yours, But I am grateful that we had crossed paths not once, But a few times. 

From the memories that we had, 

I learn not to move ahead from God's timing, no matter how hard I try to.

And because of the realization, I was able to make peace with some of the demons in me that I thought would stay in me forever. 

And for this, I wanna say, thank you Lord for this beautiful gift of yours.

Yesterday afternoon, as I was driving back from the airport after a great chat with Aunty Eileen,

I was thinking to myself, 

"WHAT DO I REALLY WANT TO DO IN MY LIFE?"

Now allow me to tell you to what has been happening in my dull life for the past eight months:

JANUARY - sat for my FINAL, final exam of my university years.
Kumang's day out. Highlight of the day: helped Tina prepare her wedding playlist.
Celebrated a quiet birthday with the soul sister and her sister.
Celebrated CNY and my belated birthday with the family (including Uncle Joe's who flied all the way from Miri to be with us).

FEBRUARY - Jobless.
Attended PRUCheese program done by Aunty Eileen's team. Definitely an eye opener experience.
Celebrated Valentine's Day with the best friend by going on a girly girl night out at The Library.
Received an offer to become a relief teacher at SMK Batu Lintang for one month. Or so it seems.

MARCH - Officially become a relief teacher at SMK Batu Lintang. Oh, btw, I teach History for Form 4 and Form 6. *yes, yawn away*
Got a confirmation letter from UNIMAS that I will be graduating this year. Woots!
Sat for pre-contact exam and passed.
Hang out with Vic, Rachel, Achis and Jess and got the invitation card for Tina's wedding.

APRIL - Still a relief teacher as I got extended TWICE in the month.
Gain a realization that healthy lifestyle is the way after the school's sports day, so I started to jog every evening.

MAY - Back to being jobless.
Managed to loss some weight after jogging and crash diet.
Helped Aunty Eileen and her team at UITM when they opened up a career drive booth.
Tina's wedding.
Had a fling (nothing sexual though).

JUNE - Gawai! Foods galore. *yeap, you guess it, I gained back all the weight I lost in May.*
Little brother entered UITM for diploma. How did time flies so fast?
Sat for CEILLI exam.
Started to apply for more jobs.
Helped Elly to move out from her rental house.

JULY - Sent Elly to the airport, where she is going back to Sabah for good.
Passed my CEILLI exam.
Got a call to attend an interview from the many jobs that I've applied.
Met Aunty Eileen and she had offered a work opportunity with her team.
Got another call from the interviewer that I managed to go through the second round of interview.

AUGUST - Went for the second interview, and out of the 50 people from the first interview, I was among the 9 people selected, and the first three people out of the 9 of the second round interview.
Finally talked to Aunty about that work opportunity with her team.


Oh, let me tell you about the second round of interview.
The job that I interviewed for is a sales job, therefore, for the second interview, us candidates were asked to pitch a sale on any product of our choice.
I was asked to come on Monday, along with another two candidates, I was the second presenter.
While I was waiting for my turn to present, my heart beats fast, but it's not really because I'm nervous.
Maybe because I just want to present and get over with.
I get that all the time before doing a presentation.
When it was my turn to present, I just went in front, and just started to talk, like how I would talk to my friends, acquaintances, or course mates.
I feel the adrenaline rush from just, talking, engaging with people.
I feel so, alive.
Sure the interviewer, along with his senior workers who were there to evaluate us, tried to ask hard questions just to throw me off; that is what they are supposed to do.
They want to see if these people that they interview, are the right people for the job, especially, if it is a sales job.
But I can say, that I managed to answer every single question that they throw at me, in confidence (although the answer might not be the right one haha).
This exposure, is something that I had learnt when I did my internship with Aunty.
So if you asked me, do you think I could get the job,
my answer would be, if the interviewer had to choose the best of the best from all the three interview sessions,
I can say I know I am the best for my session (I've seen the other two candidates' presentation, and I can safely say, I did better than them, not being over confident here, but, you get me), and I think I can be among the three that got selected for the job.

Now, the job opportunity with Aunty Eileen.
Aunty Eileen is *how do I put this delicately, in a way not to scare you people about it* involve in the financial planning business, working under a big, prominent, financial institution.
I got to know her as my intern manager, but as time passes, I still keep in touch with her because I find her very inspiring, especially that she wants to help as much as she can with our Bumiputera people.
Every time she is in town, be it for a project or work purposes, I somehow always managed to be wherever she is.
Even if it is only for a few hours, I am always there.
And after finally talking about her plans of bringing me into her team yesterday (she had been talking about this since March, it was during the time I became a relief teacher), I can safely say, I was intrigued.
I have been with her team (although not as a person who properly working with them) for a while now, and I enjoyed being around these people.
They are fun to be with and very professional when it comes to their job.
I get to meet new people every time, without fail, which is something that I enjoy actually.