*photos are not in particular order*

**photos are courtesy of Victoria Juti and Randy Mathew**

What had happen to this blog owner, most of you might wonder. *I said MOST, okay?* Well, I can say this. Life has happen to her. Not to say before this she doesn't have a life. She does. Now with the new semester reopens and friends are all here, well, you can say that they are up to lots of adventures and it's not even half of the semester yet. Heart issues are still there, it has not gone away yet (read previous post to know what I mean). But thank God for these God-send angels, she had been able to forget about it for a while. Hany is still very much her best friend, just that both of them are busy with their own life and commitments. But when they do have the time to catch up, they do it without fail. 

Okay, why am I using a third person view talking about myself?

So what I was about to say is that, life has been treating me well. Sure there are ups and downs in life. But as time passes by, I realize that being in the right circle makes me happy. And looking for love doesn't make love come to me. Instead, it drives love away from me, or so I thought. I realize that, by loving myself more is what I need for the time being. And when the time is right, I believe that love will come to me because I had finally learn to love myself more. People say, how can you love someone when you can't love yourself enough? True also. And I could have not agree more with what John Lennon had said,

which is true, because it so happens that the best memories are the ones that you least expect of it to happen. 

So basically, this post sums up how my life has been so far. How about you? How is your life so far? :D

Love,

Marcy.

Xoxo

My best guess (and so do the rest of the girls) is that, this is what he is doing to me. He is doing what I did to him when everything was still so rosy. And I've got to admit, it hurts a lot. I can't say on what level that it hurts for you, but the way that you 'played' this game, hurts me so much. There are days that I speculated a lot before I go to sleep. There are days that I looked for a sign to see what or how everything went wrong when it was so rosy then. And if this is what you are doing to me, I can totally say, I hate me too because I notice it later (I won't say "too late" because I believe that everything has it's own timing). I'm sorry if I didn't notice you then, that I was so wrapped up thinking of the ex when he is clearly moving on and you are the person who is willing to listen to my stories when nobody seem to care about it or beg me to move on already. I blame myself for failing to see all the signs that you do like me (don't you lie to me, most people I asked said no guys would do what you do if you have no feelings towards me) and the signs that God is trying to give me whenever I asked for them. I will try to be more vigilant next time. I think I am now. I thank God for the circle of friends I have now. They really are my eyes and my ears. Indeed the siblings that my parents forgot to give (not that I don't love my own siblings, I love them in my own way). But I can never hate you, even if you ask me to. Just like the lyrics to Geisha's Cinta dan Benci goes,

I just hope that everything is not too late for us, if there is 'US' to begin with.

But still, the best proposal video to me is the meme proposal. Reason? Because I actually cried watching to it, and Tim actually knows how to keep the crowd suspense. I can actually feel how Audrey may *I put MAY here because if a guy were to propose to me like that, of course I'll be flattered and scared and happy at the same time* have felt.