Yeah I just had to use this quote from this legendary movie. We know what happens in the end, anyways

I know.

The title sounds a bit, angry. Because I am, angry. And upset. And annoyed. And baffled.


Idk if it's an Asian thing, but when it comes to meeting someone you only meet once a year *hint: That grandaunt/aunt* *coughs blood*, among the first thing they will say is,


"Apahal kau makin gemuk?" Or may I translate, why are you fat?


Because  I just recently got that.

I admit, this year, I've been slacking on my jogging and piloxing. And I started to eat fast food (cue in McDonalds McChicken burger here. Oh, did I mentioned I buy their breakfast too?) when last year I diligently eat oat in the morning, snack at 10 am, always remembering my fruits (no wonder lah I got constipatipn. I've forgotten my fruits!). My tea time is either Tong Garden peanuts, or it can be a slice of honeydew. And at night, I just eat soup or yoghurt. And to top that, my jogging is twice a week and piloxing once a week, 3 times in a month.

Sorry, I digress. But I promise you, I'm getting to my point.


Again, Idk if it's an Asian thing, or Malaysian thing for that matter, whereby whenever somebody is trying to make an improvement in their life, people will go, "You wanna slim down? Aiya no need lah. Malaysian food too nice to slim down," or, "It's the Gawai/Raya/CNY/Christmas bah. Pahal mok diet? Setaun sekali kita celebrate apa?" Then, when people are enjoying their food, there will be people come and say, "don't eat too much. Later you (become) fat. Who wants to marry you?"






No wonder so many kids (adolescents and adults(!) as well) grew up thinking they can't do this, they can't do that; if you do this you'll wind up like that fella, this and that. I get that, a lot. And I still get that until today. And because of this kind of judgment, many children wind up afraid being a disappointment to their family because they don't want to wind up like that cousin/uncle/aunty who is just feeding of parents money.


Sorry. Digressing again.


Back to the "fat" part. Again, it's actually similar to what I've mentioned  in the previous paragraph. Whereby when a person takes an initiative to lead a healthy lifestyle (with a side of happiness in terms of enjoying good food once in a while), some people just had to sneer at their effort. "Oh really? You go exercise? But why are you still fat?" *sigh*

I wish there's a pill somewhere, somehow, that I can eat it, it can make my fats all go away. Or I donate my fats to skinny people who wants to have a bit of flesh. But in reality, there's no such thing. In the end of the day, it's the willpower that is the most important. Despite of doing the most advance exercise exist in the world, if you have no willpower (when it comes to choices of food, especially), there will be reduce in weight, but it will plateau somehow.

The previous paragraph, serves as my own reminder on my active lifestyle journey. To be honest, it was not easy. It is still not easy now, because I can feel the heaviness when I started to increase my speed when I jogged (how can I not feel it? When I 'quiver' whenever I see french fries and started to eat more than half of it - padahal sharing with the boyfriend hahaha). And it gets harder because I'm very petite, compared to most of the people around me. I'm only 4 feet 8 (or 9, somewhere there lah. But definitely not 5 feet), so ANY weight gain, even if it's only 500 grams, people can actually see it. It's also not helping that my metabolism is not as good as it was when I was 17, where I can eat two bowls of kolok mee and I'm still 45kg. You know what's also not helping? When people surround you keep saying "you're fat", despite of the actions that you've done; as different people has different progress.

I know, that in the end of the day, it is your self love that makes one feel happy, regardless of their shape and size, and also the number that appears in their weight scale. But in the end of the day, we are only human. Not everyday I can feel so positive. There are days that I feel down too (and it gets worst if it's before THAT time of the month). Therefore, giving support to one another is the most important key when it comes to someone's journey of weight loss. Empower the poeple who are in their weight loss journey or heading towards healthy lifestyle. Respect their decision, especially when it comes to food selection. If they choose to decline your ayam masak lemak because they are on a strict diet, let them be. Don't force (this is the thing about Iban elderly people. No means no, but yet, still insist. And when we stick to our decision, we are called RUDE. I get this a lot, but honestly, I don't care. I have my own principle and I'm going to stick to it) if one doesn't want to eat it. And for the people who are in the same boat as I am, always remember this,

I will continue to do what I can because I am not who I used to be. Surprisingly, I enjoyed jogging, I enjoyed piloxing, and despite of the pain after those floor works after piloxing, I still want to do more. Sometimes, I even can't wait for it the days to come to Wednesday, cz that's the day that I do piloxing. For the rest of you out there who are also battling the same battle, if you feel down, always remember where you are now, and move forward. Don't go backwards just because someone said a snotty remark to you. You can't control what comes out of their mouth; you can only control your reaction. I'm still learning this too reacting part too; so don't worry, you are not alone.

nowplaying: Send My Love (To Your New Lover) - Adele

Sekadar gambar hiasan. Taken from Pinterest board, "All About Vivy Sofinas Yusof"

If you want to grow, don’t date someone who is exactly like you.

It’s easy to be seduced by your mirror image—someone who validates your every whim, who agrees with you on every major issue, and who wants to spend every hour of the day just as you do. It’s reassuring to be strikingly similar to another human, but when you choose a mate who’s just like you, you’re destined to remain stagnant.

Don’t date a “yes man” or “yes woman”—the people who laugh their faces off at everything you say, and who follow your lead blindly every day. Date the person you literally can’t stand on occasion because their opinions drive you mad or their way of seeing the world seems incomparable to you. Force yourself to try to see things from their perspective—to learn how their experience of the world has shaped their views and made them harbor whatever beliefs they hold dear.

Urge yourself to consider an alternate reality.

Date someone whose strengths offset your weaknesses, and vice versa. Someone you can admire for being truly accomplished in the areas you struggle in—who’s motivated where you’re lazy, meticulous where you’re sloppy, cool and collected when you’re given to craziness.

This person will round you out.  Together, you will be better. You will enhance each other’s lives, even though you will not always align. You will butt heads, and you will fight. But if you know how to apologize, everything will be fine.

Over time, you will learn to celebrate each other for exactly who you are, including those sometimes irksome differences. You will come to understand that your partner’s flaws aren’t flaws at all. And neither are yours. You are both human and you are both constantly evolving. As a couple, you’ll see that you’re unstoppable—thanks to each other.

It's the 21st century, and everyone (and when I said everyone, I mean it includes some people whom we can call "grandparents") are in various forms of social media. There's Facebook, Twitter, Wechat, Line, Google plus. We have microblogging app such as Dayre (it is pronounced as 'Dia-ry', something like that). We have apps fit for photography enthusiast such as VSCO Cam and Instagram. Heck, my ama has Whatsapp and created one chatroom specially for her children, their spouses and her grandchildren! And she just turned 75 a few days ago (although, I am not sure if this is her REAL age or her IC age, lol). That is how fast our world is moving today that having a social media is a must (or it seemed like it).

Since most of my paternal cousins are twice younger than I am (I have one cousin on the way in fact, as at today lol), I am exposed to a number of social medias that they use these days. And one of it is Snapchat. So what exactly is Snapchat?


Snapchat is actually a form of social media where you can use to post photos (well, what else is new?), and a video of a few seconds. And the beauty of this app? After 24 hours, whatever that you posted will be sort of 'erased' from your profile. But I remembered reading about an update on Snapchat that there is Snapchat memories, something like our Facebook memories, I guess? I don't know. I just can't be bothered about the updates hahaha. All I know is that I get to post pictures with captions ON the photo itself, with some filter like face swap (this I can say, my favourite filter among all, lol) and also a few seconds video of what I AM doing at the time. I can say that I gave in to 'peer pressure' (sorta) as I have my own Snapchat account since a few months ago.

Actually, the real reason why I am writing this post is because I just wanna find a reason to post some of my Snapchat photos elsewhere than Snapchat hahaha. If you are expecting a heartfelt post like most of my previous post lately, well, not today. So this is the collection of my snaps for today, July 16th 2016.










So basically that's my update for today. It looks mundane but, well, I guess Snapchat is another way of one to post mundane things and make it interesting. To end this definitely random post, let me post a selfie of me with one of the filters hahaha.



If you have Snapchat, add me up at kumangjulan!

nowplaying: Photograph - Ed Sheeran

"Push yourself. Don't settle. Just live well. Just, LIVE."

Image from: Google. com

nowplaying: Chasing Pavements - Adele

Ridiculous checklist like this. REALLY?

Nowplaying: Only Hope - Mandy Moore

you can't help but to judge the other person.