A sexist post.
Random, no? Hahahahahahahahahahahaha! *evil laugh*
A sexist post.
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"Everyone, at some point in their lives, wakes up in the middle of the night with the feeling that they are all alone in the world, and that nobody loves them now and that nobody will ever love them, and that they will never have a decent night’s sleep again and will spend their lives wandering blearily around a loveless landscape, hoping desperately that their circumstances will improve, but suspecting, in their heart of hearts, that they will remain unloved forever."
jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
disini aku merindukan dirimu
kini kucoba mencari penggantimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
Source: Eletheowl
Yesterday night, after listening to Tinggal Kenangan (Jauh Kau Pergi) by Caramel band, I cried. I cried hard, sobbing for 5 long minutes. And soon after, it feels good. I guess, I had been keeping those feelings bottle up in me for this long month of July. Now July is coming to an end, and August comes next. I can connect myself to that quote because there are times at night when I sleep, I woke up in the middle of the night and realized that I am all alone. And I hate that feeling, so much. Being in a relationship for almost 3 years and suddenly you are single (especially when you are physically AND emotionally attached to your other half), it's hard to accept that fact sometimes. However, as time goes by, I learn to live with the pain, and naturally, the pain goes away. The only thing that stays, is the scar. But I am proud to wear that scar because it is a prove that I survive this whole ordeal. I never thought I would get pass through this situation, but I did. Of course, naturally I am proud of it.
Anyone who was heartbroken knows this, knows how I feel. Cause I know I am not the only one who felt that. The key to forget a massive break up, is to move on without looking back (because most people tend to do that). The most important part also is that, don't try too hard to forget him/her. Because the harder you try, the more you couldn't let them go. It takes time, but eventually, they will only be nothing but a distant memory. I owe this to you Rono, cause you are right (please don't brag about yourself too much okay? Perasan kau ya. Hahaha) all along. Thank you for the advice because if you didn't tell me that, I don't know how is the state of my mind today. Before I end this post, I shall share with you the song Tinggal Kenangan (Jauh Kau Pergi) by Caramel band.
*The history behind this song:
This song was actually written and composed by a girl named Gaby (Indonesian). She is said to dedicate this song to her boyfriend who passed away (I don't know what reason it was) and soon after she made a performance in her college, she commit suicide*
Pernah ada rasa cinta antara kita
kini tinggal kenangan
ingin kulupakan semua tentang dirimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
oh bintangku
jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
disini aku merindukan dirimu
kini kucoba mencari penggantimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
disini aku merindukan dirimu
kini kucoba mencari penggantimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
oh kekasih
jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
disini aku merindukan dirimu
kini kucoba mencari penggantimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
disini aku merindukan dirimu
kini kucoba mencari penggantimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
oh kekasih
pernah ada rasa cinta antara kita
kini tinggal kenangan
ingin kulupakan semua tentang dirimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
kini tinggal kenangan
ingin kulupakan semua tentang dirimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
oh bintangku
jauh kau pergi meninggalkan diriku
disini aku merindukan dirimu
kini kucoba mencari penggantimu
namun tak lagi kan seperti dirimu
oh kekasih
Love,
Marcy.
Xoxo
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Wake up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy. Not.
Happens to me every single day. Lol!
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Have no urge to watch tv tonight. Trying to sign in to Skype to Skype with ma twin Pops (but until now it's not sign in yet. Is it suppose to sign in that long? -___-).
But I have the urge to listen to Backstreet Boys tonight so I shall listen to their songs now. Kbye.
TELL ME WHY, AIN'T NOTHING BUT A HEARTACHE
TELL ME WHY, AIN'T NOTHING BUT A MISTAKE
TELL ME WHY I NEVER WANT TO HEAR YOU SAY
I WANT IT THAT WAY
:)
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Phew! That was hard work, doing the customization of ze blog's layout. Considering I couldn't find a single layout that I actually like via Google, I decided to make my own layout, with the customization here and there. Finally, I've done it! And I'm so happy with the results. The font is exactly the one that I want, the colours are according to my liking, and I am satisfied. Well, not really cause the background is a bit messy. If I have time, I'll adjust it again. And also the header. Maybe I'll make a new one, soon. In the mean time, I'll just sit back and relax till it's time to go to church.
Again, have a blessed weekend everyone!
Love,
Marcy.
xoxo
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The Princess Diaries marathon
Yeap. I'm updating my blog early in the morning (as in 4.44 Malaysian time), and I haven't slept since last night (well, minus the fact that I took a nap in the afternoon). Been watching movie since 9 p.m last night. The first movie that I watched was Apa Artinya Cinta, an Indonesian movie that I had been longing to watch since I don't know when. Herm, I'll update about that movie in the next post (if I remember that is :p). After that movie, I have the sudden urge of watching The Princess Diaries. Therefore I watched The Princess Diaries and The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement.
The Princess Diaries was in the cinemas in 2001, which was 10 years ago. Starring Anne Hathaway as Mia Thermopolis and Julie Andrews as Queen Clarisse Renaldi.
\The sequel to The Princess Diaries movie in 2001 is The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement which was out in the year 2004.
Among these two movies, I would say that I'd prefer The Princess Diaries (2001) because Mia was so naive back then, and you can actually see her transformation from a girl who nobody knows to a princess of a country (though Genovia is merely fiction). And these are some of my favourite parts in the movie:
Hilarious right?
This is just plain sweet. Awwwww!
The kissing-in-the-garden scene. Isn't it beautiful?
Not that I don't like the sequel, I do. Maybe cause I don't watch it as often as I watch the first, maybe cause it is plain boring. Idk. But anyway, it was an enhancing period for me to get to watch The Princess Diaries marathon. Oh, it's 5 a.m already. I think I should go to bed now. Good day people and have a lovely weekend ahead!
Love,
Marcy.
Xoxo.
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Rolling In The Deep
The first time I listen to this song via hitz.fm, I only listen to parts of it. Truth to be told, I don't know who sang the song, nor the title of the song. But after listening to the great drum sounds (yes, I am a sucker for drums and piano sounds), I decided to wait for another chance to listen to the song again in Hitz. Lucky enough, one day, when I was on my way home from work, Hitz played this song in their top 40 charts and I managed to catch the whole song, the title and the singer. Ever since then, whenever I listen to this song when I'm driving, I will blast up the volume as the drums are just damn good. And Adele's voice is just so wonderful. Like RJ said, "she is like Amy Winehouse before she goes cuckoo,".
Adele sang Rolling In The Deep live. She just sounds damn good even on live shows.
And due to the technology era, with the presence of Youtube, many people tried and make their own cover of this song (just like other songs, not only Adele's). One of them whom I like the most is Maddi Jane, the Youtube sensation. For an 11-year-old girl, she sounds more mature than her own voice.
Haley Reinhart, one of American Idol season 10 (or is it 11? I don't keep track of all the AI season, sorry) contestants also sang Rolling In The Deep when she was in Top 7. But her version is just a bit meh to me. No offense Haley Reinhart fans. She has great voice as well, I've watched her performing in Top 3 so yeah.
But you've gotta admit, I like her growling in this song. I tried to growl when I sing this song, FAIL big time. -___-"
The most recent Rolling In The Deep cover I've heard is by Linkin Park. LINKIN PARK! No kidding. Chester has a tremendous, high pitched voice that I had love since I was 11. And the moment I heard their cover, oh good God, my heart just fell! Chester brought this song in his own way, no similarities to Adele (as compared to Maddi Jane's and Haley Reinhart's version) at all.
The lyrics that I like the most in this song (which I intend to dedicate to A, wherever you are right now):
"THE SCARS OF YOUR LOVE REMIND ME OF US, THEY KEEP ME THINKING THAT WE ALMOST HAD IT ALL. THE SCARS OF YOUR LOVE, THEY LEAVE ME BREATHLESS; I CAN'T HELP FEELING WE COULD HAVE HAD IT ALL....."
Love,
Xoxo
Marcy.
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*From now on, post with numbers as its title means that I'm posting random photos that I took at various, random times. Just to keep the blogging mojo alive. Haha. :)*
Photo 1: Me hugging Voldermot! OMG,I can't believe I actually did that. Hahaha. Taken before watching the premiere (mind you, THE PREMIERE) of Harry Potter: Deathly Hallows 2. :)
Photo 2: Travis, cousin Mau's son. Yes, his name is Travis. He's 2 years old now. And very much adorbs! This was during a family gathering at Heng Guan; it was a thanksgiving dinner for my cousin Rousel (actually,I don't know how to spell his name that I have to refer to the text message that mummy forward to me just to make sure of his name. Hahaha.) and his wife Cory after their wedding reception which was held at Simunjan two weeks ago.
Photo 3: My brother Macson, when he was, I don't know how old he was. Hahaha. Stumble upon this photo at cousin's house at Heng Guan. This was actually taken during aunt Dara's wedding 13 years ago. I almost forgot how he looks like back then. Hahahaha. *gasp*
Photo 4: Me and Brownie, my favourite cat. I was bored home alone so this is what I do. :p
Photo 5: Bro Macson. This was taken during the blackout last Tuesday. Yes, we are that bored.
Photo 6: Blackie, my other cat. Came to the living room and found her sitting there, at my favourite spot. Hahahahaha. (okay, I need to stop "hahahaha-ing" after every sentence. Dang you RJ. Texting you makes me go gila. Hahaha. Okay,stop!)
So now, my blog is updated. :)
Xoxo.
Marcy.
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Toddlers are a bundle of joy indeed. :)
Travis, my cousin's son (that makes him my nephew lah :p).
^THIS! Kingston, son of Gwen Stefani. (photo courtesy of Tumblr)
Looking at those cute toddlers makes me wonder, WHEN WILL I MAKE MINE? :p
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1 year ago,today. Well, not exactly.
The reason why I said "not exactly" in the title is because when I got my UPU result, it was around June. Therefore, it was not exactly 1 year ago but instead it's 1 year plus. Today, the UPU result has come out for the long awaited STPM/diploma/pre-U/matriculation leavers. I must say, the mixture feelings of happy (that the long awaited wait has finally came to an end), sad (if you do not get any offers), angry etc was there. I know mine was. I still remember the night before where everyone is talking about the UPU results. I was super anxious as I was worried that I would not be accepted by the university of my choice. I cried buckets of tears before even knowing about the result. And I also cried buckets of tears after knowing the results; that I got accepted to the university of my choice, which is Unimas (short form of Universiti Malaysia Sarawak). I was very happy at that moment, as I know a new life has begun for me.
And the best part? My classmates in Upper 6 C was also accepted to the same varsity as I am. :D
That's us, during my faculty annual dinner around April. From L-R: Aling, Mann and Hany. Centre: Me!
At first, I was afraid that I am going to change (my ex has planted this in my sub-conscious mind again and again during the long wait before the UPU result comes out) after going to varsity, meeting new friends etc. Well, I did change, but for the better. I've got my self confidence back bit by bit. I have always known my passion for dance (which you stopped when I was still in high school), and the passion for singing, never dies as I always karaoke whenever I got the chance (and when I'm not broke that is) at Unimas' own K-box. Hahaha. Sounds lame, but that's true. That passes as our entertainment there. Bla bla bla, I think it scares the shit out of him that I change. But it's okay. I live, despite the fact he took my whole heart away. I have great support around me. *okay, I'm ranting now. Marcy, get to the point please?*
Besides of all the above, I've met some wonderful and shitteous people ever (and I suppose I will be meeting some more soon, with the coming of the juniors. Wee :p) which shape me for who I am today. My coursemates are the best! Though some of them I rarely know, and some may be a bit (a bit) annoying, mental, crazy etc, but hey, that's what makes us Finance batch 2010/2011 interesting!
That's Azra, one of my male coursemate with Mann.
With a bunch of my coursemates during our road trip to Bau in January.
Pgeot and Aida, my coursemates AND my housemates!
Aida, me and Jas at Tasik Biru.
And I wouldn't have met the best roomate ever! This year, we had joined a lot of activities together. From Miss Unimas to Allamanda's Fashion Show, even random outings, we do together. Gosh, I miss her already.
Aida, Elly (my roomate) and I at Damai.
During Allamanda's fashion show.
And this was during Miss Unimas 2011.
The past one year had been a blast. Vivid, beautiful memories are made, on and off camera. To those who had entered in my life, thank you for making such an effort to color my life in many different ways possible. You know who you are, I don't have to point them out. Without all of you, I am not who I am today.
********************switching gears back to UPU results*********************
From the news today, I've read that 41 267 out of 64 703 candidates were offered to continue their studies in First Degree Program at various varsities across Malaysia.. Just as the previous years, the selection of the students were based in meritocracy, where 90% were based on academics while the other 10% are based on the extra curriular activities. They say that the number of candidates offered to various varsities had increased for as much as 1.9% compared to last year's application. That's good for those who applied, I must say. Not everyone gets the opportunity to enter varsity. I know, cause some of my coursemates are as old as 26 (this year). Which means to say, they had been trying and trying before the system finally lets them enter the varsity of their choice.
It does sound cruel to some people, cause some of those who failed to get anything via UPU for the first time feel so down that they think it is the end of the world. It is not, actually. There are always ways for them to enter the university. Most universities have second intakes, some even had third, like Unimas. Therefore, there should be no reason for the person to cry their tears out cause as long as they know that there is always a will, there will always be a way. And for those who got selected for the course (or maybe not) of their choice, I say, embrace the fact that you are finally a university student. Grow up, and be a man/woman of honor, as everything will rely on you, and you only. Though there might be help from lecturers, and also group works and assignments, if you don't have the effort to help yourself, you might not see yourself graduate from the varsity of your dreams (or maybe not). Would you like to see your parents' hopes and dreams banish just like that? I know I won't. I think that's about it for this entry. I hope this is legit enough for some readers (if I have any, LOL) as sometimes I tend to rant a lot.
Till the next entry.
Love,
Marcy.
Xoxo.
.
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Grab somebody sexy tell 'em hey!
Ever since I've heard this song, not a single day pass without me not listening to this song. Getit? It's okay if you don't get it. Lol! I woke up to this song, whenever I'm driving if this song is on air; I'll blast the volume up (bad habit. I know. :D. Sorry lah, can't help it but this song is just so catchy!) and before I sleep I'll make sure I listen to this song. The best (worst, Idk and I don't give a damn) part is that, I'm dancing to that song in my head. Not all songs I listen to (and love) can make me to that extend okay? It's a good song to dance to in the club. So there you go people. Enjoy the song!
Me not working hard?
Yeah, right, picture that with a Kodak
Or better yet, go to Times Square
Take a picture of me with a Kodak
Took my life from negative to positive
I just want y'all to know that
And tonight, let's enjoy life
Pitbull, Nayer, Ne-yo, Tesra
Tonight I will love, love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight
Forget what they say
All my cares, they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I've had enough
(Let's do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight
Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Take advantage of tonight
'Cause tomorrow I'm off to do battle, perform for princes
But tonight, I can make you my queen
And make love to you endless
It's insane to wait and they ain't growin' money
Keep flowin', hustlers move beside us
So I'm tip-toeing to keep blowing
I got it locked up like Lindsay Lohan
Put it on my lap, baby
I make you feel right, baby
Can't promise tomorrow
But I'll promise tonight
Excuse me but I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby, I'ma make you feel so good tonight
'Cause we might not get tomorrow
Tonight I will love, love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight
Forget what they say
All my cares, they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I've had enough
(Let's do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight
Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Reach for the stars
And if you don't grab them, at least you're on top of the world
Think about it
'Cause if you slip, I'm gonna fall on top of your girl
When I'm involved, it goes deeper than them aces
Baby, baby, and it ain't no secret
My family is from Cuba, but I'm an American Idol
Gettin' money like Seacrest
Put it on my light, baby
I make you feel right, baby
Can't promise tomorrow
But I'll promise tonight
Excuse me but I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby, I'ma make you feel so good tonight
'Cause we might not get tomorrow
Tonight I will love, love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight
Forget what they say
All my cares, they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I've had enough
(Let's do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight
Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Excuse me but I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby, I'ma make you feel so good tonight
'Cause we might not get tomorrow
Yeah, right, picture that with a Kodak
Or better yet, go to Times Square
Take a picture of me with a Kodak
Took my life from negative to positive
I just want y'all to know that
And tonight, let's enjoy life
Pitbull, Nayer, Ne-yo, Tesra
Tonight I will love, love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight
Forget what they say
All my cares, they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I've had enough
(Let's do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight
Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Take advantage of tonight
'Cause tomorrow I'm off to do battle, perform for princes
But tonight, I can make you my queen
And make love to you endless
It's insane to wait and they ain't growin' money
Keep flowin', hustlers move beside us
So I'm tip-toeing to keep blowing
I got it locked up like Lindsay Lohan
Put it on my lap, baby
I make you feel right, baby
Can't promise tomorrow
But I'll promise tonight
Excuse me but I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby, I'ma make you feel so good tonight
'Cause we might not get tomorrow
Tonight I will love, love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight
Forget what they say
All my cares, they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I've had enough
(Let's do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight
Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Reach for the stars
And if you don't grab them, at least you're on top of the world
Think about it
'Cause if you slip, I'm gonna fall on top of your girl
When I'm involved, it goes deeper than them aces
Baby, baby, and it ain't no secret
My family is from Cuba, but I'm an American Idol
Gettin' money like Seacrest
Put it on my light, baby
I make you feel right, baby
Can't promise tomorrow
But I'll promise tonight
Excuse me but I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby, I'ma make you feel so good tonight
'Cause we might not get tomorrow
Tonight I will love, love you tonight
Give me everything tonight
For all we know we might not get tomorrow
Let's do it tonight
Forget what they say
All my cares, they play
Nothing is enough
'Til I've had enough
(Let's do it tonight)
I want you tonight
I want you to stay
I want you tonight
Grab somebody sexy, tell 'em hey
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Give me everything tonight
Excuse me but I might drink a little more than I should tonight
And I might take you home with me if I could tonight
And baby, I'ma make you feel so good tonight
'Cause we might not get tomorrow
[Source: http://www.elyrics.net/read/p/pitbull-lyrics/give-me-everything-lyrics.html]
Now that I'm hungry again, I think I shall cooked maggi curry and continue to listen to this song on the loop. But before that,
Photo courtesy of Tumblr.
Grab somebody sexy tell 'em hey!
Love,
Marcy.
Xoxo
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It's 1.13 a.m and I am still awake. So gonna be cranky when I'm sending ze brothas later on. Currently listening to Maddi Jane's version of Jar of Hearts.
"I wished I had missed the first time that we kiss. Cause you broke all your promises."
Been listening to this song ever since Azra introduced this song, whom originally sang by Christina Perri (is that how you spell her name?). But I still love Maddi Jane's version better. Haha. Anyways, before I listen to the song, I was listening to the song Hati Yang Kau Sakiti by Rossa. The first time I've heard the song was after I watched the Indonesian sinetron, Air Mata Cinta as this song was the opening and the closing theme for the song.
The credits to Air Mata Cinta.
I just love the drums and the guitars in this song. And Rossa. Oh how I love Rossa's voice. She's a petite woman with a larger than life voice. Anyways, it has been a while since I've listened to that song. I remembered I used to listen to that song every single day. I even made it as my message tone :O until my ex-boyfriend even asked,"why do you choose that song as your message tone? Who hurts you?". Deep down in my heart, my answer was, "YOU,". But of course, I couldn't say it to him right? Cause at that point, he makes me a happy person. However, when we are far away from each other, or when we fight (when we are far away from each other) or just during our stupid small fights that turns to a big one, it hurts so much I just can't understand why. Only now I understand why.
I think he is that person. Who gives me the unexplained happiness; but at the same time gives me unexplained sadness too. As the lyric goes:
"Ku menangis, membayangkan. Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku."
Yes A. That was what you did to me. But despite the way everything ends, I still couldn't hate you. I don't know why. I couldn't hate her either. Maybe you both deserve each other. And I wish luck to both of you. As for now, I am living. Though it may be half alive. But at least, I am living. I never hated you in the first place, and I never will I suppose. You thought me not to hate a person; because before this I used to be a person who hates those who hurt me. Now that you have hurt me, I'm supposed to hate you. But I can't. I just can't. Don't you worry A. I have forgiven you, a long time ago, deep in my heart. Because all I wanna do now is to move on.
And forget you, if that is possible.
Love,
Marcy.
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TGIF. Not.
"Pictures of last night ended up online
I'm screwed.
Oh well.
It's a black top blur, but I'm pretty sure it ruled."
Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F) - Katy Perry
Credits to Metrolyrics.
Bits of Katy Perry's lyric of her new single, Last Friday Night. An awesome song I must say. It has been on the top of my playlist since I've downloaded it recently. An anthem for everyone I suppose? :D How do you spend your Fridays? Whatever it is, I hope it's fun. Unlike poor me here. Stuck at home on a Friday :(. Earlier on, I was skype-ing with my beloved twin Pops, sharing story when I got a text from him asking whether I wanna join him to go out. I was over the moon until mummy told me this, "bie, tomorrow you send the boys to school. I have cross country tomorrow,". My heart crushes into a million pieces soon after. If I have to send ze brothas to school for replacement school tomorrow, doesn't that mean I have to wake up early? Shiat! I hate waking up early. Urghhh.Told him politely that I couldn't go (after a few times contemplating on whether to go or not) and that I will join them next time. At least it wasn't so bad lah that I couldn't go out. I was skype-ing with Pops until it started to have problems. Sign out and sign in again like a maniac but still, this greeted me:
I can't sign innnnn! So fucking pissed right now as story time between me and Pops were interrupted. Oh wells. Some other time I supposed? At least I'm tweeting with her right now. So yeah. Other than that, I'm doing some reblogging via Tumblr as well. Just another way to cure my boredom-ness. Haha. Earphone on the ear, music blasted. I'm good for the time being.
Dang, I'm hungry. But it's midnight. Should I eat? :'(
Ill figure out later.
Love,
Marcy.
xoxo.
P.s. Hoping that he's having a great time, wherever he landed right now :)
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What does it mean when you were texting with someone, and that person disappears for a while. And just when you want to check your phone, his/her text came. Is that what you call telepathy thinking?
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Just a dream
“Did you know that when someone appears in your dreams, it’s because that person misses you?”
— Psychological Fact (via yourheartispure)
(Source: sunnythings, via tanlubb)
I woke up to a dream of you. Yes, YOU! The funniest thing is that, you were talking to my grandfather. You guys were talking as if you had known each other for years. Talking about fishes, palm oil, etc.; to which I can't help but to smile upon seeing that. I just came back from work; and I wanted to visit my grandparents. I saw your car at their driveway. My heart was beating very fast; you never did stop making my heart beating faster huh? Even after those years, you still can make my heart beat faster. When you saw me at the door, you looked scared. As if you saw a ghost. I am a ghost indeed. A GHOST OF YOUR PAST. I just let you talked to my grandfather cause it seems to make you both happy; and I went to my grandmother at the kitchen. Then, the next thing I know, I was talking to you. At first it was awkward. But it didn't took us long to click just like we used to. And from there I can see, both of us were very happy. I did remember that I said to you this, "you were very happy with her. I can see that in your face. But why you come back here?" to which you responded something but I couldn't make up what they were as I awoke soon after.
Then soon after that, the quote up there appears in my mind. I was shaken, as usual, after a dream of you. And I remember the part of the quote says:
"IT'S BECAUSE THEY MISSES YOU?"
Is it true dear? That you actually do miss me all this while that I still dreamt of you sometimes? Or it might just be a small part of me that is holding on to us that makes me dream of you. I don't know. I wish I can explain that. But all I know is that, I am living every day, just the way that makes me happy. Thank God for my friends who are always there for me. Especially Hany and Rono. These two person are the person who know when I am very sad, though physically, I still can draw a smile for them. These two are my backbone for now. And God, you've taken him away from me for a reason, and I believe that you have someone better for me. I trust your judgement, for you are God for goodness sake! But I do wish I understand why I still dream of him whom you've taken away from me. Deep in my heart, I know he is happy. But if what the psychologist said is true, why does he miss me? He found someone better right? He even said this to me via e-mail:
scratch the Chuck part okay?
But yes. That was what basically he said to me. "Don't come looking for me," I stopped looking for you already, just so you know. My only question is, why do you keep finding a way to come back into my dreams? Why do you miss me, if you think you had better? Does that mean I do appear in your dream whenever I miss you sometimes?
This is sick. I need to stop. Kbye,
Love,
Marcy.
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Here's the things about most guys:
They think they don't have the best in their hands. But the truth is, they do. Just they don't realize it. They look for the best in some other woman. However when they realize that they have the best, the best had found someone better.
JUST SAYING.
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Hawaii-Five-O
Earlier on, I was watching Hawaii-Five-O (the remake with my brother), again. It is the finale of season 1 okay? And I was in love with the car.
This car to be exact. Ohhhh so gorgeous!
The name of the car? 1974 Mercury Marquis. The one that Steve McGarrett of the Hawaii-Five-0 (remake) drove is the ACTUAL specimen of the one that Jack Lord drove in the original Hawaii-Five-O. I have a thing for car. Thanx to my dear ex. I may not understand everything about car, but he taught me about the beauty of a car. And I know that this one is a real beauty!
Back to Hawaii-Five-0, if you asked me which Hawaii-Five-0 version that I prefer, it would be this version:
The 1968 version! The main reason?
Jack Lord is just so hot! And his poise, good God. He kinda reminds me of Horatio Caine of CSI: Miami, but I always think that Horatio Caine might get some of his poise based on Jack Lord's character in Hawaii-Five-O. Lol. Not that I am against the remake.
See? Even the intertitle is super canggih compared to the 1960's. But it's so blue!
Alex O'Loughlin is undeniably hot. He's Steve McGarrett of Hawaii-Five-0 for goodness sake! But he still can't beat Jack Lord's poise as the original Steve McGarrett. *drools*
Okay. I think that's enough. Thanx for reading my crap. Kbye!
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Natasha Bedingfield - Soulmate
Incompatible, it don't matter though
'Cause someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do, you're not easy to find
Is it possible Mr. Lovable is already in my life?
Right in front of me or maybe you're in disguise
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit?
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Oh, somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Oh, somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone
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So, I guess we are who we are for alot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we wanna go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.
STEPHEN CHBOSKY (VIA THRESCA)
Credits to Quote Book.
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DEAR JULY. THESE TWO DAYS YOU HAD BE NICE TO ME. SO PLEASE, FOR THE REMAINDER 29 DAYS IN THIS MONTH, BE GOOD TO ME? PRETTY PLEASEEEEEEEE........ *batting eyelashes*
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