"What if, what if I'm the one for you, and you are the one for me? What if?"

Even the intro makes you think of that. Because it made me think.



Back to what I've said earlier, perhaps my "what ifs" were unanswered because it's just not the right time for me yet. And maybe God is trying to say, "Marcella, that is not what I want for you." And during those "unanswered" period, I did some reflections upon the things that I wished and the strength that I had at that moment. I come to conclude that at all those moments, I wasn't ready for it, emotionally. So I trust God and just live day to day without having to worry about it. And eventually, my "what ifs" are answered, slowly, but at least by that time, I was already prepared for it and somehow feel nothing. Imagine if the "what ifs" were to be answered then and there, I guess I would be in a very bad emotional train wreck than I was after my last relationship ended.


So to conclude this heavily emotional post (not that my other posts are not emotional), always remember that:

"Anything could happen, anything could happen, anything could happen, anything could happen, anything could happen....."

Are you not tired singing to that over and over again? I know I'll be out of breath lah.

"Years ago, I was watching in the tele (television), during a Micheal Jackson concert, the lights were exactly like this (at Croke Park). And I told my mother, 'mum, this will be me someday'. And it finally come true..."

This was the crowd during the farewell concert. Picture courtesy of Google Image.

Because sometimes, a song can express my feelings in so many ways that I couldn't.




Aku bukan lemah tanpa cinta
Hanya tidak mampu sendiri tanpanya
Biarkan aku menangis kerna derita

Dia hadir mengubatkan rindu
Mengajarkan aku erti cinta
Namun semua tidak seindah ku sangka

( Chorus )
Dialah yang aku inginkan
Dia cinta yang kudambakan
Namun semua hanya tinggal mimpi
Terpisahnya cinta

Aku harus melupakannya
Aku harus memadam rasa
Namun hati tidak pernah mampu
Melepas kau pergi

( Ulang chorus )

Setelah sedar dari mimpi
Harus ku terus hidup tanpamu
Kini ku pasrah segalanya
Tentang cinta

1. Our handlers, Diana and Felicia are two coolest people I've ever met! They're not stingy with whatever knowledge they know and they're gorgeous. Yes, I just had to say that. No extra points for that.
2. Went to airport to go to Prudential's booth as today and tomorrow will be the last two days that they will be there. We were asked to do market survey, and I tell you, approaching people, to borrow a bit of their time in order to do market survey, is not easy. Some even might have an impression that we're selling products when we are only interns. Jeez people. But yeah, each day, my respect towards these people (the people who are in Prudential) grows more and more. 
3. Went to Summer mall that was just opened a few days ago with Achis. And like CityOne Metrojaya, the basement area was dusty, the car parks are flooded with water, and of course, not many stores are open yet. Although, there's Starbucks, Secret Recipe, Baskin Robbins(!) and oh, my favourite, Ding Tea. Lol. Well, they are a lot more actually but I just can't mention them all here. Bahagia lah student Unimas lepas ni....

How Summer shopping mall looks like. Photo courtesy of Google Image.