Usually, I like to use song titles (that I am currently listening to while updating the blog), but today I'm gonna make an exception for this post. 

They are my current obsession, and not a day goes by passed without me watching them. Pretty Little Liars is currently on season 3, and I'm happy to say I'm at the current episode! Managed to do some catch up over the past few weeks, and earlier I watched PLL's new episode of season 3, Crazy. Suits, on the other hand, is something I watched from Mondays to Fridays on Diva Universal. Although in US, Suits is already in season 2 but Malaysia unfortunately, a bit lambat lah. Nevertheless, it didn't stop me from watching the first episode of Suits season 2. Thank God for internet! So yeah, I practically have a 'date' with these three guys every single day. *gosh, I sound as if I don't have a life. Sad. But true.* 

I wish to post this on Facebook, but then again, I'm not the kind of person who wants to annoy people's news feed with unnecessary details about my life, so yeah. I guess I can have to be annoying somewhere else. And this is one of the places. So please don't judge me for being 'annoying' here. At least I don't disturb your life, no?

Clean shave.

Nicely trimmed hair.

I can't believe I'm saying this but, damn, you look fine boy. You should go this look more often you know? And just so you know, I will be your biggest fan. :')

My feelings towards you....

Memories.

Our memories together....

They have one thing in common.

They keep me up all night.

Marcy.

Xoxo.

How do I know I am in love?

P.s. Answers may vary according to people. This is a description of how I know and realized that I am in love. :)

1. Every love songs seems to make sense. 

- During the whole ordeal of breakup, I cringe everytime I hear a love song is on the radio. I cringe even more if the song WAS our song. Even Jason Mraz's songs, and mind you, I LOVE Jason Mraz. But one fine day, I was up early even though my class was at 10 a.m., and I played the selection of songs from PLL (short for Pretty Little Liars, for those who don't know) which are related to the girls falling in love. But I dismissed this fact so we go to the next fact.

2. I just couldn't fall asleep because the reality is better than my dream.

- I used to wept before I go to sleep. Heck, I even wept in my sleep because I thought that I am living in a bad dream. This stops when I spend a lot of time with him, texting him, even have late night talks that we were willing to skip sleep for. Even after those late night talks, when I was about to go to sleep, I just couldn't because I was still smiling about what had happened earlier on. There are time I even had to force myself to sleep. Yes, it is getting obvious that I am falling in love.

3. Smiling like an idiot all the time.

- I bet everyone agrees with me about this. When you're in love, you just smile all the time without you realizing it. I do that too. I thought I would never smile after the relationship fail. But somehow, I was wrong. I was able to smile again, and I smile all the time. Which makes my friends wonder what or who can make me smiling alone sometimes (which I bet do scare some people. Haha.). There are times I smile upon looking at my phone and people will be like, "why are you smiling upon looking at the phone?" and I answered them with a smile.

4. All I can think of is him.

- Well, this is very cliche', so I shall not elaborate more. :)

5. My heart beats fast/skips a beat whenever I saw him.

- Every heard Lenka's song, "Heart Skips A Beat"? Yeap, that is basically how my heart reacts everytime I see him. And it still does act that way even when I thought I had forgot him from my heart. Apparently, I haven't. People say it is the biggest sign ever that your are in love with that person, and the drama Dejavu di Kinabalu just proves the fact. 

Well, that is basically how I know I am in love. Though, now it doesn't seem that way anymore. Maybe I had fallen out of love perhaps? But then signs (4) and (5) are still applicable, so I am not sure. And although I thought at first it was a crush, but four months had past, and I still couldn't stop thinking about him. That is one psychological fact that people say as an indicator of whether or whether not you are in love. 

One thing for sure is, I still love him, even though it hurts to know that I might not be the source of his happiness.  

Yup, those are my ugly toes. It has been a while since I last paint my nails. We don't even have nail polish remover for God's sake. Explains why it looked ugly. Hehe.

This guy spell HOTNESS with a capital H. Coincidentally, H is his initial for Henry. Henry Golding is his name. Lelaki Iban terakhir, as me and my girls would call him due to the fact that his mother is Iban. Another reason to be proud for being an Iban :).

Last Monday he appeared on Diva Universal original show, Hot Guys Who Cook and I actually missed the episode. So I decided to stay away from Twitter until I get to watch the rerun and I did! He cooked roast chicken, which is simple but yet yummy (from the looks of it). :D Oh, and did you know that he knows about herbs? I've known guys who cook, but none I know actually has the knowledge about herbs. Damn he's awesome. 

Dear Henry Golding,

If I actually got the chance to meet you in person, the first question I would ask is, "nemu jaku Iban dik jang?" :p

Okay, I think I should stop now before I rant God knows what else. I need to stop spamming my Twitter's timeline about him as well. Haha. Goodnight!

Marcy,

Xoxo. 

Loving someone doesn't mean you should have them in your life. Loving someone means that you care about their happiness and wish them the best, even if it means that you are not their happiness. It's just as simple as that. 

Today when I log in to my Facebook after a very slow day at Aunty La's place, I stumble upon this photo, posted by my mum. At first, I just scroll down and didn't think it would make sense, but upon watching Blue Bloods, somehow this made sense. Read and understand, and try to be in your mother's shoes. Would you be able to do whatever she has done for you? 

I may not be a mother, NOT YET. But I know, I may not be able to be half the mother that mummy has been for the three of us. All these years, I was not a good daughter to mummy. God knows what bad things I did to her. But being in the university, somehow taught me that sometimes, things are not what they seems and that whatever they had done, they do it for they want to keep us safe from any harm. Nothing more. It may not be Mother's day, don't get me wrong. But, I don't think it is wrong to do a post about my mum. This is one way for me to express my appreciation towards her. For now, I am still living with her so I may take things for granted but someday, I know I will be away from her. Working maybe, or maybe I decided to stay with my husband's family (if my husband decides that we should stay with the family that is), we will never know. And when that day comes, I do not want to be the child who says, "mum was right," or "I should have listened to mama," or any other phrases that most said when they finally realized what their mother had done for them, which may have (unintentionally) made them despised their own mother. 

So dear people out there, treat your mother right, just the way that they had treated you for when they are gone, whatever you do may be worthless and pointless. And this post also serve as a reminder to myself that I should treat mummy as she treated me, although sometimes we have misunderstandings, but then it is only for my own good. 

Till then,

Marcy.

Xoxo.