After feeling satisfied seeing my result, I immediately texted Rachel to tell her about that and this morning she told me the good news about her and of course, I am soooooooooooooo haaaaaaaappppppyyyyy for her too! I'm friends with smart people, and I get positive vibes from them. I'm thankful for that :). However, I heard some bad news about my friends failing some subjects too (just like me) and luckily this time, I didn't feel so down in the dumps that I ignored other people who obviously have bigger problems than I do and manage to tell Rachel to motivate them so that we can graduate on time, together. 

Another 3 more semester to go for me. And I hope that it will be a smooth sailing journey for me, and also my friends that we can graduate on time. I really want to wear that square hat so badly, and that scroll is not only for me, but also for my parents, and my grandparents and my family who believes in me. 

Alas my dear friends, I hope we can work hard and cooperate just like we did last semester because I know, by working together we can produce a better result not only for our self but also by seeing the joy of our friends we can be happy too. I can sense that this semester is gonna get tougher and tougher therefor sticking together is really necessary. 

Let's put up our A-game and I'm sure victory and success will come to us. Before I end this post, I wanna share a video. This video have nothing to do with motivation though, it's just for laughs. 

Hello! My name is Marcella Julan.

And I was born in Miri 22 years ago, today. 

But I am still 20 at heart.

So....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

P.S. That's my boyfriend over there. Ain't he adorable? :3

P.P.S Actually I've got updates on how I spent my Chinese New Year but I'm just tad lazy to update now. It will come soon, I promise. :D

I'm sure now that her parents and also her family will be glad in a sense that her body is found. No, I don't mean death is a good thing, deaths is never a good thing. It brings sadness to everyone who is involved. What I mean here is that, at least her family can do a proper burial for her. The very least, they can visit her grave in remembrance of her. Not many people can do that you know? Take for example the case of cosmetic millionaire Datuk Sosilawati Lawiya and the other three people who was with her (I forgot who they are, pardon me) two years ago. They were beaten to death before their body were burnt into ashes and was scattered at a river in Banting. All that the police recovered was their bone fragments. How cruel don't you think? Their family don't even have a proper grave to visit in remembrance of them. As Joseph Stalin had said,

It is true. Even in The Lion King's movie it is said that life and death is a circle of life. 

It has only been 21 days of 2012, and yet I've heard so many news related to deaths in the covers of newspaper. I'm not trying to say that the Mayan's (more like human's) speculation is right; that the world will end by 20th December 2012. Let's please, don't speculate that. It just so happen that there's a lot of tragedy that happened that shook the world and forces everyone to think, is this the end of the world? 

Let's get back to life then. 

In four more days, I will turn 22. This year, is the second year I celebrate as a single lady. Last year, I celebrated it with Parv and Nadia at Garden Steamboat Restaurant and Liquid Pullman's pool side bar. 

This year, we're planning on the same thing; going for a dinner. At first Hany and I suggested steamboat at D11 but since Pops is not a steamboat kind of person (lol), we decided to do dinner again. Though this time we couldn't decide on where to go yet. There are a few choices though. We were thinking of The Junk, Jambu and Bla Bla Bla. Well, I'll update on my birthday soon on where's it gonna be. :)

Anyways, I'm sure everyone might ask what my birthday wishes are? My wish is simple: to live my life to the fullest every day. Carpe diem, that's my motto. Before this, I am a kind of person who thinks waaaay too much about my past and think waaaay ahead on my future when I don't have to worry much about it. 

I trust my life in God's hand, although sometimes I don't know why some things happen. But that is what life is about, surprises. I always love surprises, the good ones I mean. You will never know where life brings you, you know? 

I'm not saying that life should be very spontaneous. No. Being too spontaneous can bring harm too; you're like a dandelion with no direction. Just float away without a purpose. We all have purpose in life. All we have to do is search for it, accept things as it is and smile. Live life without regrets, I'm positively sure you will live a great life. As John Lennon had said,

"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."

Before I end my post, firstly I would like to express my condolences to the family of Kho Ying Qi upon the death of a daughter and a sister. Nothing in this world can express the sadness and grief that your family had experience. Let us pray that she, and also to the late Herman Sihas that they are living happily in paradise. And also to their family that they can live day to day without their presence. They may be gone in this temporary world, but they are alive, in their hearts. 

Source: Stay Positive

I know this. I've seen this before. But not when I was in a relationship; it happened when I was close to this friend of mine. A special guy friend. One special guy he is indeed. Lucky is the girl who can call him 'boyfriend'. I have yet to find mine. 

At first I thought, I was just crushing at you. However, as time passes by, I realized that you are the first person whom I thought in the morning when I wake up. You are also the last person that I think of before I go to bed. And also, if you asked me, how often do I think about you, I would like to say, "everyday. You never left my mind." So yeah, I'm falling for you. You colour my dream every night, you are the reason why I found myself smiling for no apparent reason. But what I didn't know is that, during the four month of your hiatus, you had found someone. Or maybe, that is just a statement that you blurted out to save yourself from the common question from relatives who came to visit you once a year, during festive season. I don't know. Only you know the answer. When I asked for the truth, you told me that even your best friend doesn't know about her. At first I thought, maybe you're just not ready to tell anyone about her yet. But when I think about it, and after talking to my bestie, we concluded that you are not seeing anyone right now. Let's face it: which girl in their right mind would want to be in a relationship where nobody except them know about it? I know a lot of people who are in a relationship; theirs friends know about the relationship, but not what's going on in the relationship. I was in that kind of relationship before. I know. Even Beyonce and Jay-Z is in that kind of relationship. Now what say you mister?

And it was my best friend who told me this,

Perhaps. Perhaps. Perhaps.

But perhaps, I am living the greatest irony of love.

I know I had lived through the second irony of love, because that was the worst downfall in a relationship that I ever had. I'm just hoping that I don't have to go through the third irony of love because I don't think my poor heart can take it. Enough is enough dear Lord. So basically, right now I am living the first irony of love. How long will this stay? I can't possibly tell. Maybe until the day you became a distant memory perhaps?

Maybe it is too early to say you are the one that got away. I will be turning 22 next week and my journey is still a long way to go. Therefore, I shall surrender everything to God, for He knows best. 

But even if we are not meant to be together, perhaps there is a reason why He asks you to come back into my life after fate seperated us. Though I may not know it now, I will know it someday, I hope.

On tow:

This post is dedicated to someone who is officially not mine anymore. I can only call you friend, my best friend who knew my ups and down throughout 2011, and the one who consumes my mind throughout the year. I wish nothing but the best for you, and her (whoever she is).